I Want You to Find Happiness and Never Come Back

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All songs written and performed by Foxchildren
"My Heart Goes Bum Bum Bum" originally written/performed by Flatsound
"Heart Shaped Box" originally written/performed by Nirvana
Recorded at The Phoenix Apartments by Victor Enrique Perez (Phoenix, AZ)
"Freedom", "My Heart Goes Bum Bum Bum", "We Can't Love if You Can't Live!" Recorded and Engineered by Kenny Mitchell in Tempe, AZ (August 2012 - February 2013)
"Things are People" Recorded at The ORIM/The Lighthouse in West Phoenix, AZ (March 2011)

Thank you:
Alejandra Perez, Sally Ann Jimenez, Nikki Lopez, Kenny Mitchell, Robert Raya, Kyle Gannon, Nattiauna Tsosie, Cody Edmison, JRC and Trunk Space, River Jones, Carla Ovalle, Maria Renderos, Marilyn June, YabYum Music AZ, and anyone and everyone who has taken the time to come out to a FC show. This project would be nothing without you guys.

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released August 30, 2013

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Track Name: Now is the Time for the Infinite Divine (intro)
http://vimeo.com/10423536
Track Name: Boy Culture
the porn
the light
in darkness that we thought wed never find
the devil
the devil he is touching me tonight
hes coming
hes coming telling me to close my eyes
that its better hes inside
oh baby this is right

and everybody has a secret that they wanna show
youre being really secretive im taking off your clothes
wont you kiss the devil? hes a pretty little thing
i kissed him once before it made my heart skip a beat

ooh (and your mother says)
that we're sinning all our lives away...
your winter's blue and summer's hot
but have you ever seen what the devils got
wont you take them bad vibes, take em away
and save em for your rainy days

dont forget to close the door on your way out ill misbehave
youre taking me for granted baby take me all the way
i never used a soul before i never used to be
but once you taste the blood youll have the red upon your teeth

hunger is a game you wanna play you gotta show
youre being really secretive im taking off your clothes
wont you kiss the devil? hes a decent friend of mine
i kissed him once before he looked me straight dead in the eye

"you are my only wonder, amd my only friend"
Track Name: Freedom (ft. Magi & Kyle Gannon)
from the upcoming album
"I Want You To Find Happiness and Never Come Back"

"Freedom" MUSIC VIDEO
http://youtu.be/p8mpEoXIc3U


And I've been going down my ways,
Lost my heart sometime today
And all my friends want freedom.
I'll let the music play
If you take my heart away
And all my friends want freedom.

Fight you through the storm, I breathe you in
My freedom always wins
You cast aside and I'll cast aside

It's no use, I can take what your mother gave to me
It's alright, it's alright
And everybody sings about their heartbreak memories
It's alright, it's alright

Love is like a war but it's just a flame
My freedom came to save me
You stop the war and it's just a game

Be my heart and be my soul
Be my lover, be my bones
Be the lungs inside, I'll breathe you out now
Be my lover, be my friend
Tell me this will never end
'Cause all I want is freedom.

Drink all day, we get so high
My love is strong, my love is right
Our freedom carries on until the night.
Track Name: Black & Brite
(BLACK//BRIGHT//SNOW//WHITE)
(CHEAP//THRILLS//LOVE//KILLS)

This was the grunge that you were looking for, but not what you were hoping for, baby baby close your eyes
And I'm a poet, I'm a loser from the 90's. I will sing Bikini Kill until the day I die.
I'm just a stereo, a kid who blares the radio. I hate the world and everybody hates me too.
There's nothing better than some Sonic Youth and heroin adventures in the middle of the night with you.

So touch and pick me up, we can drive all night.
The music, it brings us and stains our eyes so much
Don't give up with your stakes held high
You're brave for me, stay here with me tonight.

(BLACK//BRIGHT//PURE//WHITE)
(LIVE//YOUNG//DIE//FUN)

I'm just a rebel kid, I'm dancing with the Devil in the Dirty Boots and Cigarettes I call my own
There's people sleeping on the floor, I must be dreaming
How the hell am I still breathing? I was so damn blown

I love her, I love like a child loves his mother.
I'm coming down, I'm coming off (so slowly save me)
Hit me with a needle, baby (Save me! Save me!)

10, 20, 30, 40
Tell me that you wanna scold me
Tell me that a-dore me
Tell me that you're famous for me
Tell me that you're gonna score me
Tell me that you gotta show me
Time for turning over and over
Time for Four Leaf Clover
Track Name: My Heart Goes Bum Bum Bum
You said take the violin that you hang on your wall
Stick it under your bed before it crumbles and falls
Just dont open your eyes before counting to ten
I can hardly remember, just the smell of your hands
As they danced on my body, running over my pores
With the force of a steering wheel crushing my bones
I said you smell like the devil but you feel like the lord
When I think of perfection you know I’m thinking of your
Voice when you tell me you don't call him your baby
Because that was the name that you rightfully gave me
And its foolish to share with someone else
And my heart goes bum bum bum bum bum

But you admit that you’re lonely, you’re as cold as a statue
Pleading ‘fuck me’ on the marble that was used to create you
I cant stand that you’re talking when you shouldn't be living
I didn't dodge all your bullets I just denied that they hit me
So when my body is bleeding I wont admit that this hurts
Because admitting isn’t fixing so then what is it worth
So to say you’re unhappy is like saying you’re sorry
It's nothing that I care to hear

So now the tears in your jeans are the holes in your armor
You’re the thoughts that I feared, you’re the mountain I’ve conquered
If I told you I loved you would you reach out and touch me
You taste like the ocean and your body’s disgusting
The only reason you breathe is to sleep through the night
The only reason you speak is to tell me I’m fine
The only reason you breathe is to sleep through the night
The only reason you speak is to state that you’re mine
And my heart goes bum bum bum bum bum
Track Name: Disconnect
You’re taking pictures of the past
And it will never ever last
Cause it will never ever be like the future
(I still remember your name)

I’m disconnected and dazed
My body does what I say
But it’ll never ever be like when you were
So paranoid and afraid, we had it totally made

By the time you’re done obsessing over
All the little things you should have done
When we were younger, you’re just bloody and cold

Just give your mind to the disease
They’ll tell you what you want to be
They’ll tell you who you want to please
Then you’re just muscle and bone

Forgive me, father
I am tired of being your hero

We can’t afford to be hated
But we love to make mistakes
Are we the only ones?

My soul is hungry for a world it’s never seen before
My hunger thirsts for water, take me to the ocean shore
We’re disconnected souls to disconnected bodies we hate
We learn to love and give, but give too late

(But I’ll give you everything if you’re the one)
Track Name: I Found God (ft. Dranik)
I was always scared of you and I was always dead
And I never looked behind but then I never looked ahead
I found God
Hiding in the corners of my mind
He was hiding with the devil
Hiding with a dirty mind

Trying to fix a broken soul too broken to betray
All the people that you love
All the people that you saved
If i give you any more of me I'm lying to myself
But you never have to worry cause you'll never go to hell

I was cold, jealous, I was angry with the world
Drinking all the fucking time just to forget about the girl
I didn't love her but her name was written in my lungs
I'll do anything just give me back the days of how it was

(I'm drinking) and I'm drinking all the time
Every thought that I remember, every kiss was just a lie
The Jesus that I know was just a Jesus that I cried to
Every single night when all I got were your goodbyes


I never had the words
I never had the soul
I never had the fucking heart
I need to let it go
But every time I sleep, I dream about the one who got away
Now I'm dreaming 'bout the things I never got to say

Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you always cared
All the times I was around
And even when I wasn't there
I was never like a father
You were always like a friend
Now I cant believe it's over
It's never over 'til it ends

I never knew I was like this
I never knew you was like this
I never knew it'd be like this
I never thought it'd be like this

I always thought you'd be my friend
Now God is callin' me to something
So different I cannot pretend
I'm not preaching, I'm just speaking.
Track Name: Heart Shaped Box
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your heart shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black

Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Meat eating orchids, forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on angel hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of Your Higness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back

Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Track Name: We Can't Love If You Can't Live!
Official Music Video:
http://youtu.be/SkBIoZMMqeE

(KNOCK THAT WALL RIGHT OFF THE DRYWALL)

Oh my God it's so hot in here!
I can't believe that you left.
I can't believe that you left!

Don't go breakin' my heart now!

We can't love if you don't live
So come on baby push and I'll give you
Anything that you desire
Pull me closer, take me higher!

We can't love if you can't live right now!
Oh my baby you're gone now!
Track Name: For Lovers (Live @ The Trunk Space)
Tell me a story about your friend.
He was your lover, he was your lover
But oh my God he's so depressing,
He loathes himself and he's so obsessed
I cannot be your comfort pillow anymore.

And I wonder why he cuts out all his eyes
In the pictures he took last night,
It was an empty and hollow night
But oh my God he's so depressing
He loathes himself and he's so obsessed
I wish I couldn't be here for you anymore.

And Id empty your soul
In the daytime, and in the daytime you'd go.

The reason he cuts his eyes
Is so the demons stay away at night.

And I wonder how he feels when you talk about the way he treats you
And the way he loves you, the way he loves you, the way he loves you,

The way he knows you and the way he shows you,
The way he hits you and the way he beats you
The way he cheats you and the way he goes

And I know that he is not your friend.
And I know that he is not your man.
And I know that you never asked for this.
And I know that you never wanted this.

And I don't want a thing from you...
Track Name: Things are People (Unreleased EKB)
Unreleased improvised track from my old band (Elly Kedward Band) featuring Adrian Flores on acoustic guitar

I am tied, I am tied to it.
I will reject the knot around my waist, Anything but the truth (We are People)
Defeat is a big creature than we all assumed.
(I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
We have seen what you haven’t seen before
Things are People, things are people, things are here (I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
I refuse to die.
Things are people, things are people, things are here.
(I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
I will show Defeat who I am, even though you are bigger, stronger, oh so stronger than me (I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
I refuse to go.
Even if it kills me now, who is stronger now?
(I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
Every breath I take, every move I make (I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
Every move I take, every breath I fucking take (I refuse to drop the anchor now.)
Things are people, things are here.
(I refuse to drop the anchor now…)