I was always scared of you and I was always dead
And I never looked behind but then I never looked ahead
I found God
Hiding in the corners of my mind
He was hiding with the devil
Hiding with a dirty mind

Trying to fix a broken soul too broken to betray
All the people that you love
All the people that you saved
If i give you any more of me I'm lying to myself
But you never have to worry cause you'll never go to hell

I was cold, jealous, I was angry with the world
Drinking all the fucking time just to forget about the girl
I didn't love her but her name was written in my lungs
I'll do anything just give me back the days of how it was

(I'm drinking) and I'm drinking all the time
Every thought that I remember, every kiss was just a lie
The Jesus that I know was just a Jesus that I cried to
Every single night when all I got were your goodbyes


I never had the words
I never had the soul
I never had the fucking heart
I need to let it go
But every time I sleep, I dream about the one who got away
Now I'm dreaming 'bout the things I never got to say

Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you always cared
All the times I was around
And even when I wasn't there
I was never like a father
You were always like a friend
Now I cant believe it's over
It's never over 'til it ends

I never knew I was like this
I never knew you was like this
I never knew it'd be like this
I never thought it'd be like this

I always thought you'd be my friend
Now God is callin' me to something
So different I cannot pretend
I'm not preaching, I'm just speaking.